have I lost this much weight during finals! Between spending all day every day in the library, adderall, and being broke I seem to have made some progress :D

Now just to last through a couple weeks with the family without gaining and it would be a great end to this year.

right after you feel disgusted to be naked in front of someone but then he grabs you and wants to be with you so bad that for that one moment you feel at peace with your body

Just an apple, two clementines, some nuts, and a small bit of pasta. Also good day school-wise. I have almost no money now and now also a legitimately good excuse why I can’t go out to eat or buy groceries. But that also means I can’t buy clothes :( and I’ve had a serious craving for new boots. 

oh well…at least I’ll be skinnier

I didn’t hugely overeat yesterday, but it was still too much so I purged most of it. It was scary because my little sister was hanging around the back of the house and I was terrified she would hear me. So the plan today is just to eat A LOT less and then fast saturday till as long as I can.

and they say things like “lets meet after dinner” and I can’t remember when dinner is supposed to be…

gross, I know. And now I’m really worried about the affect my purging may have on my birth control pills. Hopefully they’re absorbed faster than the fish oil? Anyone have experience with this?

and am now enjoying a cup of decaf ^_^

I hope everyone is doing well tonight

I always have so much motivation and determination at night and in the mornings. It’s that 1-4pm time that always fucks me over.

Fasting till Friday night at least. 

but I realllyyy want to fast now.

too bad it will be following a binge/purge Thursday. Not too late to turn it around though.

I’m being optimistic because I can start to see that shadow where my hip bones should be will be.

Has anyone successfully gotten rid of or significantly reduced the appearance of their stretch marks? and how?